MOTIVATIONAL BLOG #4 ENDING OF UNIVERSITY'S LIFE

 Assalammualaikum and greetings everyone. Wishing you are in a great health. 

August 19, 2022 is the end mark of internship for Universiti Teknikal Malaysia Melaka (UTeM)'s Bachelor degree students. Not all students ending their internship on that date, it is only for the Fakulti Teknologi Kejuruteraan students. 

I do not want this motivational blog to be that formal as I only intend to share my feelings and all of that. Have been feeling blue in the last week of my internship. Flashbacks on the first day students orientation for degree, how I met my friends and my love ones. For a start, 4 years is a quite long period yet, after a while, I dont think it does take that long. Time flew by just like that. Sometimes, we dont even notice it is already ended. I was being in that situation for the whole week. 

The internship company is great, especially on the department I practical in. Everything's great. On Monday, I took time to capture some pictures of my department, my teammates working areas, my manager's face, technicians, the production line and try to memorize all of their voices and laughs in my memory boxes. As for me, I dont like taking photos physically but tend to keep it in my mind for quite a long time. For the past 6 months, they had been treating me so well and I am so grateful to Allah for meeting me with these amazing fellows. 

Then, I started flashing back on my recent whatsapp chat with my faculty supervisor from UTeM. The thought in my mind is that, this will be the last time I will ever chat with a lecturer, being a student.

I guess this happens because I already get used to continue my studies on another level after one ends. For example, graduating from school, goes on to matriculation and then to bachelor degree. It is almost 18 years of non stop studies! Half of my life, had been contributed to studying. So it is a bit awkward this time, as I had to continue to a new journey as a worker.

I will miss this moments. Able to wake up late and class cancel. Holidays. Undisturbed weekends. I do have wishes to continue on master. But, it is not the same. Not all of my friends will be continuing master or phD. The classes will not be as merrier as in Degree or below studies.

Those silly jokes, laughter, sad and happiness, tears. Im a grown up now. Its kinda sad and still feel like it. But, every hello will have a goodbye.

I hope I will be granted with a wonderful life beside my family and love ones. Together and until we all meet again in Jannah. 

That is all for now. Hope you had a great time ! May God bless you with love and happiness.

ENGLISH SPEAKING (INTERRUPTION SESSION) : DISADVANTAGES OF INTERNET

 

Hi ! Assalammualaikum and good evening to everyone especially you, Madam.

Basically, our main topic is about DISADVANTAGES OF INTERNET.

 

 The participants or students involved in this video are

1. FATIN NUR AKALILI AIMUNI BT ABDUL HALIM (B091810409)

2. HAMDAN BIN AHMAD @ ANNUAR (B091810079)

3.MOHAMAD HIDAYAT HILMI BIN MOHD RODZI (B091810423)

Here's the video for the evaluation .

MOTIVATIONAL BLOG #3 ODIN ADVISES TO THOR

Odin: Even with two eyes, you only see half the picture.

Thor: She’s too strong. I can’t do it without my hammer.

Odin: Are you Thor? The God of Hammer?

Thor: (Look down a bit)

Odin: That hammer was only to help you to control your power. Never the source of it.

Thor: I’m not as strong as you.

Odin: No. You’re stronger.

-Thor Ragnarok-

Hello beautiful people! How’s your day going? Before I start the blog writing, let us praise The All Mighty Allah for had given us a wonderful journey in our life whether in hardships or ease as He Knows Everything. Couldn’t He not? He has the right as He is the One who creates the entire universe.

Sit back and think about it for a sec,

There are thousands, billions and uncountable stars in our space, the Milky Way, and the scientists had stated that we had more than one universe existed. Other dimensions, I mean. I’m not going further details on it. However, can you just imagine how vast it is the Lord has created his creation? More than we could ever think of. If you think that the United States of America is already big enough and takes weeks to travel within it ,adding with the numerous of demands need to be satisfied by some rulers yet, Allah can command and everything is under His control without any complaint. He is the All Mighty.

Alright! Back to the topic. This time around I am not going to discuss based on lyrics but has been replaced with movie dialogue. As you can see, it’s a marvel movie, Thor, starring Chris Hemsworth (totally heart-melting guy) and I’m a marvel fan, not from the beginning but can still be consider as one it, isn’t? >.<

I like to memorize the dialogue between characters which I think would have deep meaning or as an assert in my life or I’ll just sometimes do it for fun. DEPENDS.

For this one, I would like to change the whole script based on my opinion of it.

Lord: Even when you had two eyes, you can only see half the picture.

Yes and absolutely tremendously yes! I like this statement so much because it means that human thought that they are only capable of doing things with the reliable of someone/ something else, which in this case, the help of Allah’s creations. When troubles come along, side by side, causing them to struggle so much until they feel like no hopes and helps are coming for them. Nothing can save them now. Even until that critical point, human can’t see that the only help they need is from Allah himself.

REMINDER, I use ‘himself’ not to describe Allah is a human-being and a man, no! Just as a title as I can’t be using ‘itself’ for the living and why didn’t I use ‘herself’ is because to show the leadership as Allah is the Leader of the Mankind. Man, always and forever is recognized to be known as a leader whether in the family, group, class and everything else. The most suitable title to be used is ‘himself’.

Anonymous: They’re too strong. Too many troubles to be handled. She/ He has left me. I can’t do it without her/him.

Lord: Are you my servant or their servant? Who is the one created you? Why didn’t you ask Me for help and guidance? They are hopeless without my help; they are also lost.

Lord: The troubles and hardships which you encounter, are as challenges to elevate you to a higher status. Those people are only to make you see clearly, never the source of your power. Believe what I’ve had said in the Quran.

Surah Asy-syarh ( ayat 5 &6)

“Maka sesungguhnya Bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan.”

“Sesungguhnya Bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan.”

The Quran repeated the sentences twice and still some us denied the help of Allah The Righteous. ‘After hardships there’s ease’. It’s hard to accept the fact, making us grieve in sadness and despair in most of the time. Saying to others how you feel which those guiltiness and anxiety supposedly only to be told to Allah. I admit, I did the same mistake too. I didn’t turn to Allah for help.

However, if you need advises, that’s another story. Allah sends certain and suitable people to support you but that doesn’t mean you can prattle about the others person’s ‘aib’.

Anonymous: I’m not as strong as you.

Lord: No and you will never be. You’re stronger when I’m WITH you.

Allah will never let you handle the troubles alone. He had never left your side from the very beginning. Every step, word, seeing, He knows what condition you are in. It’s us to realize His presence. He had created you, why do you think that He’ll just let you be? Your existence MUST has a reason which means you shouldn’t neither give up on life nor Allah. He rules everything. Your heartbeat, immune system, blood circulation and even the microorganism in your body are under His control.

To find a way out, you must first reflect on what you had done to receive the damage. Ask for forgiveness in every sujood of prayer. The last sujood if you may. Admit to Him your wrongdoing.

Secondly, remind yourselves of His love towards you as His servant. What He had given to you? The most precious thing is to be born as a muslim and is in the ummah of Rasulullah (Muhammad). Did you know that the previous ummah are so jealous of us, receiving the intercession. You should be proud.

Lastly is a tip, I’ve got from reading the novel ‘Pelukis Jalanan by Teme Abdullah’ where his dad reminds him to practice the 1000 DINAR.

It’s in the surah of Talaq (ayat 2 and 3)

‘Sesiapa yang bertakwa kepada Allah, nescaya akan diberikannya kelapangan (jalan keluar). Dan diberikannya rezeki yang tidak disangka-sangka. Dan sesiapa yang bertawakal kepada Allah, maka dicukupkan(keperluannya). Sesungguhnya Allah tetap melakukan segala kehendak-Nya.  Segala ketentuan itu telahpun ditakdirkan Allah.’

And that’s the closure for this motivational blog. Thank you for reading. Kalau ada silap kata, silap taip, typo ke apa, mohon maaf atas segalanya. Ini hanya pendapat saya dan semua orang boleh menilainya.

SMILE.

Not to show your happiness but to show your strong enough to handle everything.

-2/2/2020-

MOTIVATIONAL BLOG #2 NEW ROMANTICS

 Cause baby I could build a castle,

Out of all the bricks they threw at me,

And everyday is like a battle,

But every night with us is like a dream.

Baby, we’re the new romantics,

Come on, come along with me,

Heart break is the national anthem,

We sing it proudly,

We are too busy dancing,

So get knocked off our feet,

Baby, we’re the new romantics,

The best people in life are free.

-Taylor Swift New Romantics-
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hmF5vaQLVWE

Hi everyone! What a lovely day! Before I start the blog writing, just want to tell you that I’m going to mix English + Bahasa Melayu (which is my native language) and I’m using it today. However, I will still use fully English on certain topics, writing the motivational blogs.

Let’s start again, shall we?

Haiii. Assalammualaikum. Hari yang cukup indah untuk memuji kecantikan dan keindahan yang telah  Allah SWT berikan. Banyak nikmat yang dikurniakan tetapi sedikit sekali kita bersyukur.

Dalam Surah Ar-Rahman (Yang Maha Pemurah), banyak kali ayat ini diulang dan kalau kita perasan, ayat yang saya maksudkan ini sering diulangi .

‘Maka, nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?’

Sungguh indah maksudnya kerana manusia selalu terleka dan lalai apabila mengejar sesuatu tanpa memerhatikan pemberian yang telah dimilikinya.

Okay! Berbalik kepada tajuk. Setiap motivational blog, tajuk ditentukan oleh lagu yang bakal diulas maksudnya. Disebabkan saya ni memang peminat Lagu Barat, maka akan dipilih lagu-lagu yang bersesuaian.

Kalau kita mendalami maksud lirik tersebut, ia menyatakan bahawa

Ya, memang akan ada orang yang bencikan kita, sentiasa nak melihat kejatuhan kita.

Dengan cara apa yang ‘mereka’ lakukan untuk melihat penderitaan tersebut ?

    Ø  FITNAH.
Menyebarkan berita palsu/ keburukan yang mereka Nampak/ tahu tentang kita kepada orang lain supaya ramai yang akan mula membenci dan menyingkirkan individu tersebut. ‘Palau’ org tu.

    Ø  PERLAKUAN DAN PERCAKAPAN
‘Cara ini’ akan memanipulasi emosi dan minda individu tersebut tetapi saya ‘taknak’ ulaskan dengan lebih terperinci berkaitan hal ini. ‘People can forgive but they can’t forget.’
Dah pernah alami perkara seperti ini dan paling menyakitkan adalah mereka yang lakukan dan mengucapkan itu merupakan antara manusia yang paling disayangi. Sakitnya hanya Allah SWT yang Maha Mengetahui.

Namun, cuba kita fikirkan sejenak, semua yang terjadi dalam hidup ini, mesti ada hikmah disebaliknya, bukan?

Kebanyakkannya hanya untuk membuatkan kita lebih matang or ‘upgrade’ dari segi pemikiran dan tingkah laku dalam menghadapi liku kehidupan.

‘Life is full of choices, but no one ever mention fears.’

-Anastasia Journey to the past-

Biarlah orang nak benci.

Biarlah orang nak fitnah apa pun.

Biarlah orang nak tinggalkan kita.

BIARLAH. BIARLAH. BIARLAH.

Itu hak dia orang nak merasakan kesemua ‘negativity’ tersebut.

Bagi saya, asal kan Allah SWT tidak meninggalkan kita, itu sudah mencukupi.

Dia merupakan Tuhan Sekalian Alam.

Dia Maha Berkuasa. Dia lebih berhak ke atas kita.

Dia yang memberikan segala keperluan dan kasih sayang yang kita perlukan.

Takkan disebabkan hanya beberapa orang ciptaan Dia, akan menghancurkan segalanya?

Takkan hanya kerana perkataan yang diucapkan, kita hendak bersedih, murung, bergaduh dan sebagainya untuk selamanya?

Takkan disebabkan mereka ni, kita nak putus asa dan akhirnya menjadikan kita, hamba yang tidak bersyukur?

Bukannya saya maksudkan kita tidak boleh bersedih.

Boleh, silakan.

Siapalah kita untuk menahan semua cabaran tanpa tangisan dan kesedihan.

Menangislah! Menangislah sepuas-puasnya.

Ambil lah masa yang diperlukan untuk tenangkan hati.

Biarlah orang nak cakap kita ini perangai ‘kebudak-budakan’, lembik, lemah.

Saya pernah terdengar kawan saya berkata, “Alaa, orang tu dengki dengan kita biasanya sebab kau lebih hebat daripada dia.” Bukanlah dia berkata kepada saya tetapi kepada orang lain. Namun, apa yang diungkapkan itu ada betulnya juga.

Biar, biarkan.  Nanti dah lama-lama, dia sendiri akan penat. Tak habis-habis nak mengata orang, kan?

Mereka tak rasa apa yang kita lalui kerana setiap orang cabaran dia lain-lain.

Begitu juga dengan rezeki, setiap orang rezekinya lain-lain, takkan sama.

Dalam buku Pelukis Jalanan oleh Teme Abdullah,

Ahmad pernah berkata kepada Teme,

“Janganlah tengok periuk nasi orang lain untuk dibandingkan dengan periuk nasi kau sendiri. Tapi, tengoklah periuk nasi orang lain untuk pastikan mereka ada cukup makanan. Bersyukurlah dengan rezeki yang Tuhan berikan kepada kita. Bantu orang lain. Kau akan jadi tenang.”

Pesanan, andai kata ditakdiran mempnyai sahabat seperti ini, JANGAN LEPASKAN. Jaga persahabatan sebaik-baik mungkin. Ini yang baru dinamakan ‘SATU DALAM SEJUTA’.

Jangan pernah risau dan cemburu dengan kegembiraan orang lain, yakinlah suatu hari nanti, kita juga akan merasakan kebahagiaan itu.

Apa yang mereka lakukan dan katakan kepada kita, sepatutnya dijadikan pengajaran.

Jangan pergi belasah pula orang tu, nanti akan melarat ceritanya.

Sabar. Sesungguhnya Allah Bersama orang yang bersabar.

Jangan berdendam.

Biarlah Allah SWT yang balas tindakan mereka.

‘Ya Allah Yang Maha Perkasa,

Ya Allah Yang Maha Memaksa,

Ya Allah Yang Maha Membalas.’

Ni antara kata-kata yang sering dibaca dalam doa Qunut Nazilah.

Tetapi sebolehnya, kita doakan yang terbaik dan kebaikan untuk mereka agar suatu hari nanti, Allah Swt buka hati mereka untuk berubah.

Tiada apa yang mustahil jika kita yakin kepada Allah Swt.

Bukan senang nak hilangkan kesedihan dan keperitan tersebut.

Tetapi pengalaman sebeginilah yang akan menjadi tunggak kejayaan kita nanti.

Ceeeeeewwwwaaaahhh. >_<

‘And everyday is like a battle.’

Nak tempuh satu hari tu, terasa sangatlah lama.

Tercari-cari. Otak ni tak boleh berhenti berfikir. Tak penat ke?

Semua benda buat tak jadi. Selera hilang. Eh semua lah. Betapa peritnya nak lalui hanya satu hari, macam manalah nak hadap setahun macam ni? 365 hari. Allahuakhbar.

Well, I feel you bro.

Tetapi ingatlah, ‘Hanya dengan mengingati Allah SWT, hati akan menjadi tenteram.’

(Ar-Ra’d: 28)

‘Heart break is our national anthem’

Dah terbiasa dengan semua cabaran yang diberikan. Hari demi hari, mereka hanya ibarat angin yang menyapa dan berlalu pergi tanpa meninggalkan kesan.

Macam maths, awal-awal memang susah dengan tak fahamnya lagi. Kenapa lah aku kena cari unknowns ni semua? Kenapa lah aku ambik course ni dulu? Last sekali, kadang-kadang terfikir juga, kenapa lah aku wujud? >.<

Tetapi, bila dah selalu buat latihan, semua soalan kita boleh tackle dan selesaikan. Petik jari je lah! Kacang je!

Macam itulah hidup. Apabila banyak perkara yang kita dah alami, kita sendiri boleh kesan, mana yang baik dan mana yang buruk.

TOXIC PEOPLE, PLEASE BUANG JEJAUH.

It is a compulsory.

Tak kiralah siapa pun mereka untuk kita.

Kalau setakat mendatangkan keburukan dan kesedihan, baik ‘blah’.

‘You deserve to be happy.’

Ni adalah kehidupan kau. Kenapa nak hancurkan?

Dah buat silap, kita betulkan, bukannya pergi buat balik, kan?

Sampai bila nak bersedih je? Sampai mati?

Sia-sia je lah hidup macam tu.

Tinggalkan. Tak perlu risau. Jangan takut. Jangan berharap lagi.

Kalau mereka ugut, jangan dilayan.

Perasan takut ni, hanyalah untuk Allah SWT.

Allah Swt Maha Mengetahui, Lagi Maha Halus.

Biarkan mereka pergi dan jangan kembali.

Teringat pula lagu ‘Achey- Sakit’, deep sungguh lagu tu.

Tiap kali dengar mesti jantung pun terasa sakitnya. Huhu.

Itulah sahajalah untuk kali ini. Ringkas. Harap bermanfaat untuk kepada mereka yang memerlukan. In shaa Allah, saya akan ulas motivasi yang lain menggunakan lagu-lagu melayu pulak, okay?

Okay, saya simpulkan nasihat untuk motivational kali ini.

v  Lepaskan apa yang terbuku dalam hati

v  Menangislah sepuas-puasnya

v  Bersabar

v  Jangan berdendam

v  Singkirkan Toxic People.

SMILE.

Not to show your happiness but to show your strong enough to handle everything.

-30/1/2020-

MOTIVATIONAL BLOG #1: EVERYTHING I WANTED

I had a dream,

I’ve got everything I wanted,

But when I wake up I see,

You with me.

And you say,

As long as I’m here,

No one can hurt you,

Don’t want to lie here,

But you can learn to,

If I could change,

The way that you see yourself,

I wouldn’t wonder you’re here,

They don’t deserve you.

If I knew it all then, would I do it again?

Would I do it again?

If they knew what they say would go straight to my head,

What would they say instead?

-Billie Eilish Everything I wanted-
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgBJmlPo8Xw

I had been known as a ‘Happy-Go-Lucky-Girl’ during my school times (primary & secondary).

I brought happiness and full of laughter and smiles whenever I when,

Whether for a competition, tournament or even a visit.

I used to have the specialist of making people laugh,

I used to be able separating all the negative thoughts and problems encounter in my life before,

I used to love to do the things my heart desired, without thinking twice,

Unfortunately, the ‘old me’ was gone.

I’m not who I used to be,

Since the day, a human-being, whom I loved the most, broke my heart to pieces,

It shattered, struggled to survive, I thought, I would survive,

But I was mistaken and not everything can be fixed now.

‘Once broken consider sold’

‘Once broken consider gone’.

It’s my fault.

To give a full trust,

To a non-halal man who should deserve nothing from me,

As love turns to hatred and revenge,

Luckily, Allah Swt, The Merciful among All, reminds me that people make mistakes and so do I,

Allah Swt is the One who brings me back to life and gives me hopes to survive the fall, 

A helping hand, non-stop guidance day and night,

Neither during my sleep nor my walk,

He’s there and so now,

I’ve given back my broken heart to Him to care, to keep, to be concealed.

I can’t believe it happened to me but I’m grateful for everything.

Depressions.

Battling with depressions is not an easy task,

People wouldn’t perceive the meaning of it until they feel it themselves.

‘I’ve tried to scream, but head was underwater.’

To be honest, I do have suicidal intentions for several times,

If it wasn’t a sin, I would have died a long time ago.

However, they are few things which actually stop me.

The thought of ‘You had suffered in the world, if you commit suicide, it would be a sin, A BIG ONE, which eventually dragged you to hell. Suffer here, suffer there and nothing ends.’

And I thank God for creating such an incredible mind.

I knew that there were thousand people are in the same shoe as I am,

Which really drained all my energy,

Dragged me to the bottom,

Killing every happiness inside of me.

It takes time,

Months, Years

Cause it effect trust issues,

I don’t trust anyone,

Especially those who betrayed and backstabbed me before,

They thought they had gained my trust,

Actually, they don’t,

Once a liar, always a liar,

Unless God shows me that you had changed.

‘Words are sharper than knife.’

‘If they knew what they say would go straight to my head, what would they say instead?’

They just don’t care about others’ feelings,

So egoistic just to say ‘sorry?’

I don’t understand.

I’m not saying you should lie to others just to take care of their hearts,

No! That’s wrong and telling white lies.

It’s not okay.

Spiting off the venom out,

Not knowing the cure,

It’s not okay.

You should know that breaking people heart is wrong,

And Karma is real.

These are my advises for today motivational blog, including myself.

  v  It’s okay to feel down, to cry, to weep over everything.

  v  Try to mend the heart back together little by little.

  v  Remind yourself that everything will be okay.

  v  Don’t plan a revenge.

  v  Don’t torture your physical.

  v  Train yourself with positive thoughts.

  v  Push away all the toxic people

  v  You are not alone.

SMILE.

Not to show your happiness but to show your strong enough to handle everything.

-27/1/2020-

Gagal adalah Kunci Kejayaan

Assalammualaikum dan salam sejahtera kepada semua pembaca yang dirahmati Allah.

Motivasi pada hari ini adalah spt tajuk di atas tu.

Dalam hidup ni, tidak kiralah,  org tu kaya ataupun miskin, beragama ataupun tidak, pasti takkan terlepas daripda kegagalan.
Kegagalan ni ibarat satu halangan dalam hidup.

Manusia yang tidak suka menghadapi halangan, dia akan menerima kegagalan utk selamanya. Manakala,  manusia yang mampu mengatasi halangan tersebut, akan mendapat ganjaran dalam hidupnya.

Sebagai contoh,  saya bagi contoh dalam sukan la. Acara larian berpagar.  Bayangkanlah kalau pelari tu,  tak mengatasi (melompat)  pagar iaitu sebagai halangan tersebut, apa yg akan jadi??  Semestinya, dia akan jatuh tersungkur dan sekiranya,  dia tetap berdegil dan berkeras hati tidak mahu melompat,  dia tetap akan terjatuh sehingga ke garisan penamat.
Lain pula keadaan bagi pelari yg berusaha mengatasi pagar tersebut,  lariannya akan berterusan,  ada kala,  die akan terjatuh mungkin kerana kesilapannya sndiri,  tetapi,  itu tidak menjamin dia akan tetap jatuh untuk selamanya, sekiranya die tetap berazam untuk berjaya,  pasti akan dapat.

Masyarakat sekarang selalu anggap kegagalan ni penyebab kesengsaraan hidup mereka, sedangkan mereka tidak tahu bahawa kegagalan itulah kunci sebenarnya sebuah kejayaan.  Bagaimana?

Dengan mengambil iktibar dan pengajaran apa yang berlaku,  analisis semula kegagalan tersebut dan puncanya,  ubah strategi,  dan cuba semula.  Sekiranya gagal,  cuba sekali lagi dan lagi sehingga berjaya. 😎

Dalam sudut sains,  Albert Einstein pun banyak kali gagal dalam menemui teori yang sebenarnya, tetapi , beliau tetap berusahakan?  Pernahkah kita mendengar kisah hidup beliau, beliau menyerah kalah?  Tidak sama sekali. 🙅🙅🙅

Dalam sudut agama Islam,  Rasulullah Saw juga menemui kegagalan dalam hidup iaitu mengislam orang2 kafir di zaman beliau.  Peperangan pertama , Perang Badar, kejayaan diperolehi orang Islam. Namun,  pada perang kedua,  Perang Uhud,  org Islam kalah🤕 kerana kesilapan mereka sndiri iaitu tidak taat dan akur trhadap perintah dan larangan Rasulullah Saw kepada mereka ketika itu. Sungguhpun begitu,  perang yang seterusnya,  Islam berterusan memenangi dan menawan musuh2 mereka. 🙌🙌🙌🙌

Jadi,  pandanglah kegagalan dari sudut yang positif bukannya negatif. Ambil yang jernih, buang yang keruh. Percaya kepada Allah,  Allah itu Maha Adil Lagi Saksama. Jangn pernah berhenti berusaha. Keep moving forward. 🤓

Love.

Assalammualaikum and greetings.
I had been broken-hearted for some months now and started to make a status of sadness.
Just then,  I've looked at my older posts in this blog of mine, seeing the old me,  staying strong as always. I wish I could be that person back,  who had a strong heart to encounter everything in life.

I shall share to you my opinion on love,
Love is something can be created,
At least that is what you think.

You are wrong. Human kind are born with loves within them.
Love can be universal, as it doesnt need to be only specific for humans but it can be towards others stuff.

When you love someone, you will try to be your best for them.
You'll reach the max of your ability for them.
Some of them,  appreciate and honour u back with their love content,
Unfortunately,  some dont.  They see you as a miserable person who annoys their life.

Noticing or not, most of us had loved the wrong person the whole time while our heart still saying he is the one or she is the one.
Allah is the Almighty,  He knows what is best for you, your family,  your future, your life here and hereafter.

If you lost in the middle of  the way, make a U-turn, come back to the begining and starts again when you are ready.  Dont move on, if you know, you cant barely face it. I know how it feels to be BETRAYED, WASTED, USED, IGNORED, AND TO BE LEFT ALONE. Truly,  I KNOW WHAT YOU FEEL!

If you think,  I had recovered from the pain, oh my,  youre wrong.  The SCARS MADE BY HIM are still there, waiting to be cured or to be teared up again. It takes time to heal. But once your heal,  you wont feel any regret of leaving such dreadful love.

If anyone tries to bring you down,  just let them be.  Remember to rise again and bring victory to your heart. When you are ready,  you can love again.

Take the past as your lesson to create a new life ahead and never stop praying to Allah, to show you the PERFECT spouse. Be patient and wait, a little patient, wont take you for granted. Love them and never forget who gives you those feelings, return to him, Allah.